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Transition
Book 2 of The Starfarers Quartet
Vonda N. McIntyre
Chapter 1
J.D. Sauvage, the alien contact specialist, drifted in zero
g and waited for a message from an unknown civilization.
She floated alone in the observer’s circle. The circle’s
transparent chamber, projecting from one edge of the explorer spacecraft Chi,
offered a two-hundred-seventy degree view of the Milky Way, of the star Tau
Ceti’s second planet, and of Tau Ceti II’s satellite. When J.D. oriented
herself with Chi at her back, she could imagine herself to be completely
surrounded by silent space. The galaxy extended from one edge of her peripheral
vision to the other, a great dense spangled disk of light stretching before
her, extending behind her.
She had too much to look at. She wanted to laugh and shout
with excitement. She was an alien contact specialist: she had spent her life
studying for a job that, until today, did not exist. Until today, she had no
way of being sure her job ever would exist.
A computer-generated image formed in the center of the
observer’s circle, drawing her attention from the sights outside. She watched,
rapt, as a new shiver of shadow and light intensified the image and added to
its density.
The alien message hovered, forming slowly between J.D. and
the stars. Each bit of information strengthened the image as a whole. Tense
with anticipation, J.D. urged it on, as if the force of her will could speed
the transmission. As yet, she could not be sure of a pattern within it; she
could extract no information.
Chi plunged toward the
source of the message. J.D. felt tempted to accelerate, to expend fuel
recklessly, to reach the destination a few minutes or a few hours sooner. She
restrained the urge. It was unnecessary, unwise.
The on-board computer processed another block of data and
added it to the message from alien beings. The image grew denser, but no more
detailed.
J.D. kept thinking she could detect a pattern, but the
pattern she thought she saw kept changing. Her mind was trying to impose
organization on the iridescent gray blur.
Be patient, she told herself. It will have structure, like
the first frame. Maybe the meaning of the second frame will be clearer.
She touched the on-board computer via her link, asking it to
place the first frame of the alien communication side by side with the second.
A complex symbol formed before her. The first section of the
alien message was as complicated as the second, so far, was simple. The maze
looked like a curtain, a tapestry, intricately beautiful, beautifully complex.
Paths led across its surface, disappeared within and beneath each other,
widened and split like the streams of a river delta, narrowed and disappeared. Chi’s computer had traced a single unobstructed
path leading from the design’s edge to its center. The path lay in gold light,
a meander of fractal complexity. It touched every part of the surface. Yet it
never crossed itself. It twisted and turned and backtracked, but never knotted
or tangled.
Chi’s computer, and all four members of the alien
contact department, and all the several hundred people back on board the
starship Starfarer, had tried and failed to make sense of the pattern.
Perhaps its esoteric form required more computer power that Starfarer’s
crippled systems could offer right now, or more ingenuity than the members of
the deep space expedition had been able to apply. Perhaps it was so alien that
human minds and human machines could not comprehend it. Or perhaps, as J.D.
preferred to believe, it possessed no inherent meaning except what its observer
brought to it. J.D. believed it was art, an esthetic expression so important to
the alien beings that they used it as an introduction.
J.D. wished that Arachne, Starfarer’s fundamental
bioelectronic computer, would complete its healing. She wondered what Arachne
would make of the alien message. Besides, she missed Arachne’s information web
as much as she would have missed her hands or her eyes.
On Starfarer and on Chi, many machines were
artificial intelligences, and most possessed at least the level of competence
referred to as artificial stupidity. J.D. had access to the physical and
analytical services of a myriad of auxiliary computers, ASes and AIs alike.
Nevertheless, she preferred her connection to Arachne. Without it, she felt
detached and lonely. She was impatient for the computer web to finish
reconstructing itself. The backups were flavorless, boring, and nearly as
involved with Arachne’s restoration as Arachne itself.
The second frame of the alien message shivered again,
intensifying by another shade. Still J.D. could detect no structure.
She left the second image in the center of the observers’
circle, but pushed the labyrinth behind her. When it was in sight it distracted
her, constantly pulling at her vision. Now she could look at it, if she liked,
by glancing over her shoulder. The translucent pattern hovered, obscuring the
entryway between the observer’s circle and Chi’s main body.
J.D. let her attention expand beyond the observers’ circle,
into the alien star system. The most striking feature within her view was the
system’s second planet. The Earthlike world revolved around Tau Ceti, the
G8-type star that lay out of J.D.’s sight, obscured by the flank of Chi.
Around the planet revolved a large satellite, airless and dead as Earth’s moon.
But Tau Ceti II was alive, clearly and lushly alive. Weather
and seas and continents patterned its surface. Already the alien contact team,
and their colleagues on the starship, had mapped forests and plains, deserts
and tundra and icecaps, river systems and ocean currents, great herds of beasts.
The third planet of Tau Ceti also possessed life, and an
environment habitable by human beings. But Tau Ceti III was on the far side of
its star, in relation to Tau Ceti II, so far away that from Chi’s
vantage point it was no more than a tiny disk of light.
J.D. considered the implications of finding, in the first
star system human beings had ever visited, two worlds possessing life. Her
excitement rose toward exultation. Life was not unique to Earth. It was
not even rare.
She suspected it was ubiquitous.
Strangely enough — for someone
had arranged to broadcast the alien message — neither living planet showed any
obvious marks of civilization.
The alien message, still increasing in density, yet still
incomprehensible, emanated from a structure on Tau Ceti II’s large satellite.
Directly ahead, the satellite expanded perceptibly as Chi
sped toward it.
Like its planet, it was three-quarters full. It was bigger
than Earth’s moon, younger, rougher, wilder. It spun on its axis, rather than
rotating with one face locked toward its world. It was too small to retain any
atmosphere. It had craters and plains, maria, like Earth’s moon, but it
also had active volcanoes and great canyons where faults had cracked and
opened. At the top of the satellite’s dark limb, a pinpoint of light marked an
expanse of glowing molten rock. J.D. recalled a line of poetry, written by
Coleridge, disdained by astronomers for describing an impossible astronomic
arrangement.
“‘The hornèd Moon, with one bright star/Within —’”
“‘ — the nether tip...’”
Victoria Fraser MacKenzie completed the line of poetry.
Entering from Chi’s main body, the director
of alien contact for the deep space expedition dived through the holographic
image of the maze and joined the observers’ circle.
J.D. grinned at her colleague. Victoria grabbed the top of
her couch and spun around into it, graceful and comfortable in weightlessness.
The most intense of J.D.’s teammates, the physicist moved with economy and
precision. Her presence was so powerful that people were always surprised, when
they met her, to discover that she was quite small. J.D. was a head taller than
she.
Planet-light sparkled in her very curly short black hair,
and created delicate highlights on her dark skin. She fastened one of the
safety straps and smiled across the circle at J.D.
“Coleridge, vindicated,” J.D. said.
Victoria chuckled ruefully. “And revenged — he sent his
albatross along with us.”
J.D. laughed, too. She could laugh, now that the danger was
over. Laughter might be the only sane reaction to what had happened.
“I did sort of feel like that missile was an albatross
around my neck,” she said. “Especially when Kolya said not to let it go.” Her
arms still ached from wrestling the nuclear warhead out of Starfarer’s thick, rocky skin, from holding on to
it until she could safely let it go.
If it had exploded a few minutes sooner... she thought. If I’d
slipped, and it crashed into the wild cylinder...
She shivered, remembering.
The missile’s strike and detonation had left Starfarer alive, damaged but repairable. Now, the
starship followed Chi at several hundred
thousand kilometers’ distance, escaping a cloud of nuclear debris.
“I wonder,” J.D. said, “how the alien beings feel about
albatrosses.” It worried her, what they must be thinking. A nuclear bomb was a
lousy calling card.
“I wonder what they
think about our simple-minded signal. Their first one is so complicated, and
this one—” Victoria shrugged with perplexity. She turned her attention to the
half-formed pattern, gazing at it hungrily, as if she were starving and it was
nourishment.
The alien contact team had speculated about the proper first
message to send to alien beings. They had tried to create a Rosetta stone, a
key to human language and science and culture that could be translated and comprehended
by an alien intelligence. But they had to do it without the other half of the
stone, the idiom into which the knowledge must be translated. They used
universal constants, the table of elements, representations of electron
orbitals: all the resources of a technological culture.
Soon they would know if their attempts had succeeded. Chi heralded its approach with a broadcast: a
high-speed, compressed, multi-copy burst of information in laser light. But
compared to the alien labyrinth, their message was simple, graphic,
straightforward.
J.D.’s pulse beat through her body, and excitement sparkled
in the corners of her vision. She ran her hands through her short straight
brown hair and made herself relax, pressing the tension out of her heavyset
body, letting it flow away through her fingers and toes. If she closed her
eyes, she could pretend she was swimming in Puget Sound with the orcas and the
divers. Zero g had a similar, freeing effect.
A breeze brushed her cheek as Satoshi Lono dove through the
labyrinth and passed on her left. The team’s geographer touched the transparent
far wall, pushed off and somersaulted, and came to rest against his zero-g
couch. He loosely fastened a safety strap, his athletic body curving forward
against the restraint as he scrutinized the alien message.
“God, it’s slow,” he said impatiently. “You have to wonder
if they think we can read.”
“Maybe we can’t, as far as they’re concerned,” J.D. said.
“You’re so calm about this,” he said.
J.D. did not feel calm. She glanced over at Satoshi,
wondering if she should have heard irony in his voice. But he smiled at her
with genuine regard.
It was too complicated to try to describe the truth of what
she felt.
Zev, the young diver, floated into the observer’s circle
backward, slipping through the labyrinthine hologram as if it were the surface
of the sea.
“Come on, Stephen Thomas,” he said. “Just swim.”
“Swim, huh? Swimming in air is a pain in the ass.”
Stephen Thomas Gregory broke through the curtain, paddling
awkwardly from the main body of Chi. His
awkwardness in zero g was a shock, for under ordinary conditions he moved with
assurance, poise, and self-confidence. If Satoshi was the most resolute athlete
of the team, Stephen Thomas was the most gifted.
“Are we there yet?” Stephen Thomas asked, putting on a
cheerful voice.
“Almost,” Victoria said, smiling at her other partner.
The geneticist grabbed the headrest of the couch in the
quadrant to J.D.’s right, dragged himself into position, and fastened both
restraints. His body language contradicted his tone, his joke. He lay within
his couch, looking uncomfortable. He hated zero gravity. The alien contact
department balanced on the brink of snatching success from dispute and failure;
even that could not erase Stephen Thomas’s tension and apprehension.
His long blond hair drifted loose across his face, hiding
the cut on his forehead. Both his eyes had blackened remarkably since the
accident. The livid bruising of his pale skin almost made it possible for J.D.
to forget how strikingly beautiful he was. He tucked his hair behind his ears,
absently, impatiently, muttering an offhand curse.
Zev let himself drift near J.D. She reached out and touched
his hand. He clasped her fingers. If they had been in the sea, their touching
would have been more intimate. Zev had just begun to learn land manners, and
sometimes J.D. had to remind herself of hers.
“Please strap in, Zev,” Victoria said.
J.D. gave Zev’s hand an encouraging squeeze and let go.
Obediently, but reluctantly, he took the auxiliary couch to her left and
strapped himself in.
Victoria, Satoshi, Stephen Thomas, and J.D. occupied the
couches at the cardinal points of the observer’s circle. That was as it should
be. But Zev’s presence was quite contrary to plan.
Zev is so young, J.D. thought. He’s too young to be on board
Chi, too young even to have joined the
expedition. Still, I’m glad he’s here, I’m glad he’s with me.
Fascinated yet dispassionate, Zev gazed around, as
interested in the reactions of the four ordinary human beings as he was in the
slowly changing alien image, or in the stars beyond the transparent shell of
the observation chamber.
Zev lounged between his couch and the loose safety straps,
as easy in zero g as any twenty-year veteran. He let his arms hang relaxed
before him, with the palms of his unusually large hands turned toward him and
his long, strong fingers gently curved, gently spread. The swimming webs
between his fingers looked like delicate sheets of amber. His skin was a deep
mahogany color, several shades lighter and redder than Victoria’s. His hair was
very blond, lighter than Stephen Thomas’s.
The message shivered again. It was now almost solid to the
eye, yet still it contained no perceptible information. J.D. did not understand
why the alien source transmitted with such excruciating slowness. The message
arrived at a slow, unchanging rate, without any acknowledgement of the message
the team broadcast in response.
Maybe it’s just a beacon, J.D. thought. Or — maybe the alien
message is acknowledging us, and we just
don’t understand. Maybe they’re slow, deliberate, dignified. Maybe the
constancy of the message means, to alien consciousness, that we’re noted and
anticipated.
“Victoria,” J.D. said, “what if we pull out one copy of our
message and slow it down? Broadcast it at the same rate this one is arriving?”
“Couldn’t hurt to try,” Victoria said.
Tentatively, warily, J.D. let her eyelids flicker.
“Be careful!” Victoria said, her voice tense and
apprehensive.
J.D. glanced toward her. Victoria grimaced and shook herself
all over.
“Sorry,” she said.
“That’s all right,” J.D. said. “Don’t worry. I don’t want to
get caught in another web crash, either.” She closed her eyes and reached
through her link to check the information and communication computer that
formed the nerves and brains of Starfarer.
She had not been deeply involved with Arachne during the crash; when the web
fell apart she had not been emotionally and intellectually bruised, as had
Victoria, as had Iphigenie DuPre, the master of Starfarer’s
solar sail. Nevertheless, J.D. approached the web cautiously. Since the crash
remained unexplained, its cause undiscovered and unrepaired, it might happen
again, at any time, for any reason. Or no reason.
J.D. reached out, but Arachne remained self-involved, intent
on the repair of its web.
J.D. opened her eyes. “Arachne’s still out,” she said.
“Never mind, eh?” Victoria bent over the hard link that
extended from the arm of her couch. “I’ve got Chi working on it, it’s
almost done.”
Touching Starfarer’s auxiliary computer systems did
give J.D. some feel for the status of the starship. The parallel spinning
cylinders sailed into the Tau Ceti system. The solar sails reoriented the
starship, pressing it into a course that led to the second planet, decelerating
it.
Back in the solar system, Starfarer had approached
its transition point at dangerously high velocity, fleeing the military carrier
sent to stop it. Without Iphigenie DuPre’s experience with solar sails, without
her preparations and Victoria’s backup, the starship would have failed to
connect properly with the cosmic string. It would have failed to reach
transition energy; it would have lost its path to Tau Ceti. The expedition was
lucky to have Iphigenie along. Whether she was lucky to have joined it was
another, more difficult, question.
J.D. felt a great relief, observing the course changes.
Iphigenie must be all right, she thought. She must have
recovered from the shock if she’s in control of the solar sail.
I should start thinking of it as the stellar sail, J.D.
thought, now that we’ve left our own system.
“One copy of our message,” Victoria said, touching a key on
the hard link. “Now, a control program...”
“Be sure you tell them we didn’t bring the bomb along on
purpose,” Stephen Thomas said.
“Any suggestions on just how I should do that?” Victoria
said.
“I wish,” Stephen Thomas said. He glanced across at the
labyrinth. “I wish I could translate that, too.”
Their schematic, simple greeting was hardly designed to
convey complicated explanations, such as “We didn’t mean to explode a nuclear
warhead inside your system. Some people back home didn’t want us to leave Earth
orbit. The missile we dragged through transition was an attempt to stop us.”
“Maybe they’re waiting for a message from our leader,”
Satoshi said. His pleasant low voice turned uncharacteristically bitter. “Our
silent leader.”
“Oh, come on,” Stephen Thomas said. “Chancellor Blades is
okay.”
Satoshi made an inarticulate sound of distaste. J.D. had
observed, even on short acquaintance, that Satoshi got along with everybody. He
even got along with the assistant chancellor, Gerald Hemminge, though most
people found Gerald abrasive. It startled J.D., as it startled Stephen Thomas,
for Satoshi to take an instant dislike to anyone. But he did not like Starfarer’s
new chancellor.
“He is,” Stephen Thomas said. He glanced around, as
if for confirmation.
“I’m sure he is,” J.D. said. “But I’ve never met Chancellor
Blades.” Though he had put in an appearance at her welcome party, he had left
before she arrived.
“He’s a little shy,” Stephen Thomas said. “Reserved. He
comes off looking aloof. And I’ll bet he felt off balance, coming on board and
knowing everybody suspects his motives.”
“You can hardly blame us,” Victoria said, glancing up from
the link. The United States had put tremendous pressure on EarthSpace to
appoint Blades as chancellor. Everyone assumed his real task had been to
oversee the dismantling of the deep space expedition, and of Starfarer.
“He stayed with the expedition,” Stephen Thomas said
stubbornly. “He didn’t get on the transport to go home. That says something for
him. And it’s more than you can say for Gerald,” he said to Satoshi. “You ought
to at least give him a chance.”
“I shall,” Victoria said. “As soon as he gives me a
chance. As he never troubled to return my call, I have no way of judging him.”
Victoria set back to work, every so often glancing at the
alien transmission.
J.D. watched it, too. Any pattern it might be forming
continued to elude her. Her mind kept trying to make sense of the speckled
image, but so far all its structure remained in her imagination.
I think I see something the way people used to think they
saw faces and buildings on Mars, J.D. realized. The way Stephen Thomas thinks
he sees auras. But I’m making it all up.
“That’s it,” Victoria said. “One copy of our greeting,
transmitted at the same rate as the alien message.” She touched the keyboard. “Sent.
Sending, anyway.”
“It sure is slow,” Satoshi said again.
“Maybe its batteries are running down,” Stephen Thomas said
dryly, “and there’s nobody to replace them.”
“Oh, don’t say that!” J.D. said, distressed.
“Our luck has been ridiculously good,” Stephen Thomas said. “It’s
too much to hope that nothing will go wrong.”
J.D. started to laugh. When she heard the high note of
hysteria in her voice, she struggled to control herself.
“J.D., what’s so funny?”
After a moment, J.D. stopped laughing long enough to wipe
the tears from her eyes.
“Nothing’s funny! Stephen Thomas, how much bad luck do we
have to have, to balance out any good? Half the faculty is back on Earth while
their governments sulk, Arachne’s operating on the level of an artificial
stupid, you and Satoshi nearly got squashed, and we had to steal Starfarer to get out here at all—”
“We didn’t steal it!” Victoria exclaimed. “We just... kept
going as if nothing had changed.”
“That isn’t how they’re looking at it back on Earth,”
Stephen Thomas said. “It isn’t how the folks on the transport who are stuck
here are looking at it.”
Victoria’s gaze caught his, then broke away.
“We had no choice,” she said.
J.D. wished she had not brought up the subject of stealing
the starship, at least not in those terms. She knew perfectly well that
Victoria felt sensitive and defensive about their means for continuing the
expedition. It had been Victoria’s proposal to defy their instructions to drop
into a low Earth orbit, where the starship would become a military watching
post. At Victoria’s instigation, Starfarer
had continued on course to transition.
J.D. wiped her eyes again, trying to think of something to
say to ease the tension.
“There’s definitely some structure forming in this thing.”
Satoshi kept his attention on the transmission; he kept his voice quiet and low
and calming.
J.D. forgot her embarrassment; she forgot Victoria’s
aggravation with her and Stephen Thomas.
J.D. searched for the structure, the evidence of sense, that
Satoshi claimed to see.
“I’m not getting anything out of it,” Stephen Thomas said.
“Me, either, I’m afraid,” J.D. said.
“No, look, there, it’s a very fine pattern, a kind of filmy
configuration...”
“Maybe,” Victoria said doubtfully, hopefully.
“Why has it stopped?” Zev said. “It isn’t changing anymore.”
“What? It—” J.D. protested, then fell silent, fearing that
what Zev said was true.
Victoria grabbed for the hard link again.
“He’s right,” Victoria said. “It’s the message. The antenna’s
okay. So’s the receiver, and the hologram imager. The message has stopped.”
“Shit,” Stephen Thomas said.
“No kidding, Stephen Thomas,” Victoria said. “You had to
wish for more bad luck.”
o0o
Feral Korzybski felt like an old-fashioned serial computer
trying to solve a parallel problem. The free-lance journalist was drawn in so
many directions that he could easily spend most of his time moving from one
story to the next, instead of with the stories themselves.
Intellectually, he could handle several lines of thought at
once. That was not the problem. The problem was that without Arachne’s web, the
only place he could be was wherever he was physically. One place at a time. The
place he most wanted to be, the place that drew his heart and his wishes, he
could not reach. He would have given anything to be on board the Chi with Stephen Thomas and the rest of the alien
contact team. The best story in his lifetime, in the lifetime of human beings,
and he had to cover it from a distance.
The limitations were driving him crazy. He could not go with
the team. Nor could he participate by way of virtual reality, immersed in a
holographic broadcast of the alien contact team’s experience, an unseen
colleague observing everything from the point of view of a camera. The ship’s
computer was not yet up to it. Feral could only participate through a hard
link, wishing he were in the observers’ circle beside Stephen Thomas, in one of
the empty auxiliary couches.
Feral tried again, as he did every few minutes, to hook in
with Arachne. It rebuffed him, but he could feel the increase in its awareness
and complexity. It was healing. But it would not, or could not, give him enough
of its capabilities to be of any use to him. He would be last in line to get
Arachne’s attention and a place in the web; since he was not a member of the
expedition, he had only the limited access of a guest.
He had his suspicions about who had crashed the web. Almost
everyone on board Starfarer believed it
must have been someone on the carrier that had chased Starfarer to transition. Feral understood wanting
to believe no expedition member could be responsible for the malevolent attack.
He wanted to believe it himself. But he thought the desire led to easy answers.
Easy, wrong answers.
He had some ideas about finding the right answer.
Since he could not be on board Chi,
he was in his favorite spot, so far, in Starfarer.
The sailhouse was a small, completely transparent cylinder suspended between
the starship and the stellar sail, attached to Starfarer
only by an access tunnel. In the sailhouse, in zero g, Feral had experienced
transition.
At the far curve of the sailhouse, Iphigenie DuPre hunched
quiet and concentrated over a hard link.
She would have direct access to Arachne if anyone did. In
normal space, Iphigenie and the computer navigated the starship. Even if she
could not yet connect with Arachne, Iphigenie could link directly with any
number of auxiliary computers. Nevertheless, she was using the relatively slow
and awkward hard link to control the stellar sail. The ship had come barreling
out of transition, faster than they ever intended, arriving blind in the Tau
Ceti system. Iphigenie had to put Starfarer
on the proper path.
The musical readouts of the sensors whispered and sang. They
spoke a language Feral did not know, and without Arachne neither could he
translate it. The notes created chords, harmonies, melodies. Every so often he
heard a sour note, a minor triad. He knew that was not right. But there was
nothing he could do but watch and remember, and keep trying to talk to Arachne
to record his words and insights.
From the sailhouse, Feral could see the enormous sail
stretched out across space like a flat silver parachute, slowing the starship’s
headlong plunge through the system. In the other direction lay the two huge
cylinders that made up Starfarer: the campus and the wild side. He could
see the mirrors that conveyed sunlight or starlight to the interior. Beyond it
all hung Tau Ceti II and its satellite: a blue-green three-quarter disk, and a
smaller, beaten-silver oval.
He could not see Tau Ceti, the star, itself. No nearby star
would ever be visible from inside the sailhouse. Starfarer, in its
present orientation, shadowed the sailhouse. Had it not, the transparent wall
would have darkened to hide the blazing disk of the sun. In shadow, the whole
sailhouse remained transparent. It responded to radiation, visible or
otherwise, by darkening and shielding the inhabitants. Feral was extremely grateful
for the shielding properties of the sailhouse, and glad they were much more
powerful than they needed to be to protect him from sunlight. If they had not
been, he and Iphigenie would both have been fried by the radiation of the
nuclear explosion.
Feral pushed off gently and floated toward Iphigenie.
Strange that the sailhouse had remained transparent all
during transition. Feral recalled that brief experience.
Disorientation overtook him, unexpectedly, powerfully.
Without thinking, he reached for any handhold. Instead, he sent himself
tumbling. He brushed past Iphigenie, bumping her with enough force to push her
away from the hard link.
“What — ?”
Feral bounced off the side of the sailhouse. He managed to
damp some of his spin, then had to wait, tumbling foolishly, until the air
slowed and stopped him. Iphigenie had already brought herself back to
stillness. She watched him, puzzled.
“Are you still here? What is
the matter?”
“I was trying to think of a way to describe... what we
experienced during transition.”
“Oh,” she said. She hesitated. “I think that isn’t a good
idea.”
“You can’t do it, either?”
“I was very busy,” she said defensively.
“No, you weren’t,” Feral said. “The sail was furled. Your
work was finished. You drifted here right beside me and stared out at —”
“Stop it,” she said.
“Sorry.”
“You have to understand,” Iphigenie said. “When Arachne
crashed, I went from complete sensory load to nothing, to emptiness. What we
saw, felt, experienced, what I felt during
transition... That was like being hooked in deep to Arachne, but a hundred
times over, and with my body as well as my mind. Now that’s gone, too. I’m
isolated. Disconnected from reality. And I don’t know if...”
Her voice trailed off.
Feral drifted closer, reached out tentatively, touched
Iphigenie’s hand. She was shivering. He put his arms around her and held her,
hoping he was doing the right thing, hoping that human contact was what she
needed to repair her connections to reality. He stroked the smooth tight braids
of her hair and rubbed the back of her neck, the sensitive concavities where
the skull joins the spine, till she stopped trembling.
“Maybe once through transition was enough?” Feral asked
gently.
“May be,” Iphigenie said. “It may be.” She drew away from
him, patting his hand.
“I understand,” Feral said. And he did, though he did not
agree. He looked forward to experiencing transition again.
But he could not think of words to describe it. This
troubled and annoyed him. It was his job to think of words to describe it.
Feral was the only reporter on board Starfarer. Other writers with more experience and
better connections might have gone out with the expedition, if it had departed
on schedule. It had not: it had departed early and in confusion, to keep the
military from taking over the ship.
Feral was supposed to have gone back to Earth, but he had
never even boarded the transport. He felt embarrassed for his selfishness, but
he was glad things had gone wrong. If they had gone right, he would never have
been able to stay.
For a journalist three years out of school, he had decent
connections. But it took better than decent connections to pull EarthSpace
strings. He was free-lance, surviving on royalties from the global
communications web. When people read his work, he got paid. The money had
increased, this past year, as his stories gained more notice. Enough money to
live on and enough money to travel freely off Earth were two very different
things. He had no sponsors; “sponsored independence” was, as far as Feral was
concerned, an oxymoron. He had bought his own ticket into space, like any
tourist, and he had pulled in nearly all the obligations anyone had ever owed
him to get on board the starship.
But it was worth it. It was certainly worth it.
o0o
Nikolai Petrovich Cherenkov lay on the floor in the main
room of his house, stretched out on a small threadbare rug in a patch of alien
sunlight. He watched the hard link, focusing on the image of the alien
transmission.
On board the starship, arguments, confusion, and perplexity
all hung suspended while the faculty and staff and even the transport
passengers watched the communication. Like the members of the alien contact
team, they, too, tried to make sense of it.
It disturbed Kolya. Why should it arrive at such a leisurely
pace? Perhaps the aliens lived at a rate entirely different from that of human
beings. Or perhaps they thought travelers to their system might function very
slowly.
The cosmonaut tried to persuade himself that one of those
possibilities was true, but he found that he believed neither.
You’re just feeling more paranoid that usual, he told
himself. Exhaustion and pain will do that to you. You are much too old to
wrestle with nuclear warheads.
He wondered how J.D. was, whether she ached, as he did, from
their struggle with the nuclear missile.
I should be grateful I’m not a handful of radioactive dust,
Kolya thought, rather than bemoaning my aged muscles. Still, I ache.
He found that he badly wanted to talk to J.D. Sauvage about
the alien message.
He put his cigarette to his lips and drew hard on it before
he remembered he had not lit it. He never lit a cigarette inside; the smoke
detector was too sensitive.
He spat out a shred of tobacco. He was trying to quit. He
had been trying to quit for decades. He was probably the only human being left
alive who still smoked.
And he was, finally, running out of the cigarettes he had
begged, borrowed, and bribed people to smuggle into space for him. It was years
since he had even found a source, and the few remaining packages had acquired a
strange off taste. Freezing in liquid nitrogen was supposed to preserve things
indefinitely, but as far as Nikolai Petrovich was concerned, liquid nitrogen
imparted its own unpleasant flavor.
Kolya was not a scientist. He had been a test pilot, a
cosmonaut, a guerrilla fighter. Now he was a man under sentence of death in
what had been his homeland. Only off Earth could he be safe.
Safe. His smile was ironic. Not for the first time, he
thought: I’m probably the only person in the universe who’s safer on board Starfarer than I would be back on Earth.
He put the unlit cigarette back in his cigarette case and
slipped the case into his pocket.
I must quit, he told
himself. I am witness to the first message from alien beings, and I am thinking
about nicotine.
The hard link’s focus changed from the alien message to
Victoria Fraser MacKenzie.
“The transmission has stopped,” she said.
Kolya forgot about nicotine. Staring into the frozen image
on the hard link in his parlor, he rose, fumbling for the audio controls.
Tangled voices spilled out as people on Starfarer
reacted to her announcement.
Kolya listened, but no one suggested a good reason for the
termination of the message. His unease increased.
“It must be Arachne.” Kolya recognized the voice of Gerald
Hemminge, the upper-class British administrator who was assistant chancellor of
Starfarer. The duties of Gerald’s position included acting as liaison
between the starship and the Chi. He must be feeling ambivalent about
the job, for he had been among those who argued for allowing the United States
military to recommission Starfarer. He had opposed the decision to keep
going. He had tried to go home.
Gerald had been on the transport that Starfarer
dragged along with it to the Tau Ceti system.
“It must be the crash of the web,” Gerald said. “The message
could still be coming, but...”
Arachne had taken months to create itself and its
communications web. It had begun to evolve with the superstructure of the
starship, and had taken as long to form as the starship had to build. Perhaps
it would take months to reform, after its inexplicable crash. No doubt the
accident would change it. But, then, it grew and evolved and changed all the
time.
“Could be, but I don’t think we’re getting anything at the
antenna. What about you, Victoria?”
Kolya did not recognize the second voice. Though he had been
living on board the starship since it was barely habitable, he had not gone out
of his way to make friends here. He had lived the life of a hermit, letting his
fame, or infamy, form a wall between him and the other people on board. He
wished he had not isolated himself quite so efficiently.
Victoria MacKenzie’s voice reached Starfarer after a second or two of transmission
delay.
“But our image is the one that’s frozen,” she said. “It has
nothing to do with Arachne. The antenna is working fine. I don’t have any more
ideas, Avvaiyar. We’ll continue to broadcast our own message, and we’ll keep on
going toward the alien source.”
Kolya reached out to Arachne, wanting to send a message to
J.D. But Arachne still was not ready to reply to a human being. Though the web
had begun to restore its most important function, its control over the
starship, it still lacked the attention to spare to handle trivial things like
personal messages.
Who crashed the web? Kolya wondered, for the thousandth time
since the shocking failure of the starship’s control systems. Who would do such
a thing?
People remained in the health center, recovering from the
effects of being involved with the system when it failed. Other people had gone
back to work who probably should still be recovering. Deliberately crashing the
system was a criminal act. It could have been murder. Only by sheer good luck
had no one been killed.
Kolya hoped the deed had been done by someone outside Starfarer, someone on board the warship that had
chased them to the point of transition.
Crashing the web from outside should not have been possible.
Crashing it from inside should not have been possible, either. Yet the system
had crashed.
Kolya did not belong to the support group backing the alien
contact team; he held no claim to the ship’s strained communications resources.
If he wanted to talk to J.D. about the transmission, he would have to go to the
liaison office and ask to call her directly.
He wanted to talk to her; he wished he were on board the Chi, but he was not a member of the alien contact
team.
On the other hand, neither was Zev.
Kolya tried to suppress his resentment of the young diver.
He failed. The diver had no space experience, no training: he had no right to
be on the explorer. Kolya envied him bitterly.
But perhaps he belongs there, Kolya thought. Alone among us,
he has lived with a non-human sentient species. Perhaps he does deserve to be
there, after all.
o0o
The image of the alien transmission remained unchanged.
Victoria reached out a query to the Chi’s computer and tested it again. It responded
properly, innocent of locking up. Nor had the antenna drifted.
“The moon’s rotating, isn’t it?” Stephen Thomas said
hopefully. “Maybe the transmitter’s gone over the horizon.”
“It’s got relays,” Victoria said. “The signal didn’t waver
from the time we picked it up to the time we lost it. It didn’t drift. It didn’t
fade. It just stopped.” Stephen Thomas could look at the same information and see
the abrupt blink from full signal to nothing.
“I still think it’s saving battery power,” Stephen Thomas
said. “Or maybe—”
“What’s the point in speculating?” Satoshi said. “If you
make up reasons all day, we’ll be no closer to knowing the answer than we were
when you started.”
Stephen Thomas fell silent, his expression hurt.
“Look, I’m sorry,” Satoshi said. “I just—”
“Never mind. You’re right. You don’t have to apologize when
you’re right.”
“Aren’t we,” J.D. said hesitantly, “transmitting to Starfarer?” Her voice was soft, as if the
microphones might not pick up her words if she spoke quietly enough.
Stephen Thomas muttered a curse. Victoria hoped the
microphones could not pick up what he had said.
“You are transmitting, you know.”
Gerald Hemminge must have spoken at the same moment as J.D.,
but his voice had taken a couple of seconds to cross the distance from Starfarer.
“I’ve interrupted the relay to public address,” he said. His
tone was not nearly so mild as J.D.’s. “You may tell me when you’re finished
arguing... unless you have some particular purpose in doing it in public.”
Satoshi’s rueful chuckle earned him a glare from Stephen
Thomas.
“Immortalized forever,” Satoshi said. “A historic moment.
Warts and all.”
“Thank you, Gerald,” Victoria said. Though Satoshi got along
with the assistant chancellor, Victoria did not, and Stephen Thomas disliked
him intensely. Gerald had no obligation to protect them from themselves. “We’re
exhausted, and this new development has thrown us all. But we’re finished arguing,
I think.”
She glanced at Stephen Thomas, who glowered back as if to
say, “Who, me? I never argue.”
“The day hasn’t been easy for me, either, you know,” Gerald
said. “I have no computer support and several eminent passengers demanding to
go home. A demand with which I concur, not that you are likely to listen to me
now any more than you did before we left.”
Victoria did not rise to the argument. “If you’ll put me
back on public address,” she said, “I’ll sign us off and shut down the voice
transmission for a while.”
Several seconds passed.
“Very well,” Gerald said.
“I’m locking Channel One onto the image of the alien
message,” Victoria said for the benefit of the observers on board the starship.
“Unless the broadcast starts up again, there’s not much we can do till we
arrive at the point of origin. At least I can’t think of anything else to do. I’m
open to suggestions. Channel Two is the view in our direction of travel. We’ll
begin transmitting as we approach orbital insertion. Victoria Fraser MacKenzie
out.”
“The public audio’s off,” Gerald said a moment later.
“Thank you, Gerald,” Victoria said. “Avvaiyar, don’t
hesitate to call me if you learn anything new.”
“Victoria, my friend,” the astronomer said, “I couldn’t tell
you everything new I was learning in less than three days. But if anything new
comes up that relates to the alien message, I’ll call immediately.”
Avvaiyar’s interests focused at the rarefied point where
physics and cosmology intersected. When it came to their professional
disciplines, only when she and Victoria discussed cosmic string did either have
any idea what the other was talking about.
“Good,” Victoria said. “I’ll talk to you soon.”
She shut down all the audio channels and rubbed her eyes.
She could not remember when she had felt so tired.
Victoria glanced at her teammates. J.D. was still
embarrassed, her fair skin flushed. Satoshi was amused. Stephen Thomas hated to
look silly; he was sulking, but his natural good humor would reassert itself
soon.
She could probably tease him out of his mood. Victoria tried
to summon up enough energy to tease him. She failed.
Dammit, she thought, we ought to be out here fresh and
rested and ready, with everyone behind us. Instead, we’re physically and
emotionally exhausted, Stephen Thomas looks like the loser in a barroom fight,
and the ship is behind us, all right: limping along with a crater in its side,
trailing a cloud of nuclear debris. And then there are the transport
passengers.
She was glad she had been able to divert Gerald from telling
her more about how the passengers felt, because right now she did not want to
know.
And even so, it could be much worse. Stephen Thomas could
have been killed, not just banged around: the genetics building could have
fallen on top of him and Satoshi instead of falling down around them. The
missile could have detonated sooner.
I suppose we ought to consider ourselves lucky, she thought.
We’re renegades. We’re fugitives.
But we’re alive.
She stared at the frozen transmission, wondering what to do.
She shook off her distress. After all, being a fugitive was
a tradition in her family. Her several-times-great grandparents had escaped
from the United States to Canada on the underground railroad. She smiled to
herself: she was only following their lead.
The image from Channel Two faded in beside the alien
transmission. Satoshi leaned closer to study Tau Ceti’s second planet, a pretty
blue-green world with a single airless satellite, a world nearly a twin of
Earth. Victoria wondered where its people were, and she knew Satoshi wondered
the same thing. Now that the transmission had ceased, the system remained
silent all across the useful broadcast frequencies. Where were the system’s
inhabitants?
Victoria realized that some of her exhaustion was due to
hunger. She released her safety straps.
“I’m going to make a sandwich,” she said. “Anyone else want
something?”
“That would be great,” J.D. said.
“Filet and baby French carrots for me,” Stephen Thomas said.
He smiled, back to his usual self already.
Victoria returned his smile. “I might be able to fill the
order for the carrots.” Starfarer grew no
beef, and the starship had left precipitously and lacking a large proportion of
its backup supplies. Victoria doubted the starship had any red meat in storage,
even for special occasions.
Victoria floated out of the observation room. “Cordon bleu
all around,” she said.
“I’ll help,” Satoshi said, and followed her.
o0o
Nikolai Petrovich limped along the edge of a low, wide,
grass-covered hill. At its peak the hill dipped down to form an open amphitheater,
where Kolya had spoken in defense of the deep space expedition. That was the
first time he had ever gone to one of Starfarer’s
meetings, the first time he had ever spoken in a public forum on board the
starship, the first time since his days as a cosmonaut that he had spoken in
front of an audience of living people.
Many years ago, after he escaped from his invaded homeland,
he had spoken for the public record, for cameras. He recalled it as if it were
another lifetime. Someone else’s lifetime. He had believed—he still believed—that
his recounting would have made a difference if the world had heard what he saw
and experienced under the authority of the Mideast Sweep. But the world had
never been allowed to know what he had to say, and now it was too late.
He continued down the trail, favoring his body. He ached all
over. He hoped he had only strained his muscles. A muscle strain would heal
fairly rapidly, more rapidly at any rate than a torn ligament or tendon.
Nothing healed the way it had when he was younger.
There were times in Kolya’s life when his body had been
badly abused. Some of those injuries he never got over, and some of them were
to his soul.
o0o
Griffith, who pretended to be from the Government
Accountability Office of the United States of America, walked fast down a path,
his gaze on the ground and his thoughts light-years away.
He needed to walk. He needed the freedom, the motion. During
Starfarer’s crisis, he had been trapped
inside a survival sphere for over an hour. It had seemed like days. He still
found it difficult to believe that General Cherenkov had overpowered him,
immobilized him. He felt embarrassed, upset, and, above all confused. He was
not used to feeling confused.
He did not like it.
He never would have taken me, Griffith thought, not if I
hadn’t begun trusting him. That was a mistake. I let my admiration for him get
in the way. If I hadn’t started trusting him, he never would have taken me.
The landscape looked familiar. He recognized the topography
of a small clear stream, a clump of budding white lilacs. He had walked
completely around the circumference of Starfarer’s campus cylinder. He
was, of course, walking in circles.
Griffith swore aloud. When he first came aboard Starfarer,
he had envied its inhabitants. They lived in a place of beauty, a place that
represented limitless freedom. But to Griffith it had come to represent
entrapment and isolation and his own failure.
He reached out to the starship’s computer web and received a
null response. This was the worst system crash he had ever observed. He
wondered who could have engineered the collapse of the web and its backups.
Whoever did it, however they did it, they had achieved a spectacular success. A
few days ago, Griffith would have applauded it. Now he regretted it.
He looked up. A few paces farther on, General Cherenkov
rounded a turn in the path. Griffith stopped.
Cherenkov hurried past him.
“General —”
Cherenkov spun around, looming angrily over him.
“I told you not to call me that!”
Griffith stepped back involuntarily, poised for a fight. He
did not intend to let Cherenkov make a fool of him again.
Griffith was an unremarkable-looking man; this was one of
his strengths. When people described him, they talked in terms of mediums:
medium brown hair and eyes, medium complexion, medium build, medium height.
Cherenkov was quite tall, especially for an astronaut. A cosmonaut. His height
intensified his intimidating presence.
Cherenkov eased back. “I have no wish for a rematch,” he
said. “We may take it as a given, Marion, that you would win a second round.”
“I don’t like being called Marion any more than you like
being called ‘general.’ Can we call a truce on this?”
Cherenkov turned and strode down the trail. Feeling like a
supplicant, Griffith followed. He caught up after a few paces, but he had to
lengthen his stride uncomfortably, or trot, to stay level with Cherenkov.
“You never said you did not like being called Marion,”
Cherenkov said.
“The hell I didn’t.”
“You said you did not ordinarily use your given name.”
“We’re arguing semantics! Will you wait a minute? Where are
you going?”
Cherenkov stopped again. “When are you going to keep your
promise and leave me alone?”
The tone in the cosmonaut’s voice hurt Griffith far more
than the physical pain of the fight.
“I risked everything I had,” Griffith said. “Everything. And
I lost it. To help this expedition continue.”
“No one asked you to! No one asked you to help it, and no
one asked you to sabotage it in the first place. No one here.”
“You have no proof of your accusations.”
“Do I need any?”
“To turn me in?”
Cherenkov smiled. Griffith had never noticed before that his
front teeth were crooked, one slightly overlapping the other. The flaw startled
him.
“Who would I turn you in to, Marion?”
Griffith hesitated. Starfarer
possessed no security force, a fact that had leapt out at him with startling
prominence when he researched the expedition. As far as he knew, these
disorganized anarchists had never even discussed what to do with a criminal,
much less set up any mechanism to deal with one. The alternative was mob rule,
vigilante justice. When he first came on board the starship, Griffith had felt
contempt of the personnel. But he had seen enough of their hotheadedness in the
last few days. He could be in serious danger if Cherenkov denounced him in
public or in private.
“You think that if I tell my colleagues who you really are,
they will deteriorate into a mob.”
“I think they already did that,” Griffith said.
“Perhaps I should tell
them what you’ve done. You hurt any number of people by crashing the web —”
“I did not!”
“They are still in the health center. Many are in shock.”
“I know people were
hurt. But I didn’t crash the system.”
Cherenkov started walking down the trail again, this time at
a more reasonable pace. Griffith followed him.
“Who did, then?”
“I don’t know.” Griffith said, both surprised and grateful
that Cherenkov trusted his word. “I figured it was someone in the carrier.”
“I’m not a systems expert. But I would have thought that to
be difficult, if possible at all.”
Griffith walked beside him in silence for a few minutes.
“I hope it’s possible,” he said. “Because otherwise I’m the
most likely suspect.”
“But you are innocent?”
“Of crashing the system, yes, I’m innocent.”
“But guilty of other things.”
“They don’t concern anyone on board Starfarer. Only me, if I get back alive. If any
of us does.”
“Why did you change your mind about the expedition?”
“Because you wanted it—”
Griffith stopped. Not because his words were a lie, but
because they were so true. They made him even more vulnerable. First he had
begun to trust Cherenkov, and now he was telling him the truth.
“I see,” Cherenkov said. “I asked you to think and act for
yourself. Instead, you tried to divine my thoughts and you tried to act for me.
I don’t understand you. If you have to obey someone, what possesses you to
choose me?”
“I saw the tapes you made...”
Griffith expected Cherenkov to tell him to shut up, but the
cosmonaut continued in silence along the rock-foam trail, where banks of pink
and white camellia bushes rose on either side. The two men walked parallel to
the long axis of the starship’s main cylinder, along a cool, green path. The
air smelled of damp grass, for a shower had passed a few minutes ago. The cloud
lay a quarter of the way farther along the cylinder’s circumference, sweeping
its course with raindrops.
“You saw the tapes?” Cherenkov said. “I thought they were
destroyed. Long ago.”
“No. They exist.”
Cherenkov shrugged. “Too late, by years, for them to do any
good.”
“What you said in those interviews moved me,” Griffith said.
“Deeply. I could see you fighting to control your pain and your outrage, but I
could feel it all anyway. Your words, your feelings, were like a sword...”
“I felt nothing.”
Marion Griffith looked up at him, uncomprehending. “No. What?”
“I felt nothing when I made those recordings. I knew that I
should feel something. I knew it was important to tell what I saw, no matter
how terrible it was. But I could feel nothing. I turned all that off, months
before, just to survive.”
“If it wasn’t real, you’re a damned good actor!” Griffith
said.
“Yes,” Cherenkov replied, matter of fact.
“You’re lying. No. I don’t mean that. You’re making it up to
protect yourself from the truth. I know how to do that — to keep it from
hurting anymore.”
“Don’t rewrite my life for me! I remember how it was. I
almost refused the interviews, that’s how difficult it was.”
“You see!” Griffith heard his own voice, urgent, desperate. “It
was too painful —”
“It was difficult,” Kolya said softly, “because I no longer
wanted to care. I had to force myself...”
Griffith could think of no reply. He felt stunned and numb,
as Kolya had claimed to feel.
“Perhaps if they had ever used those tapes as I expected
them to be used, if I had seen them again, things might have been different.
But I told what I had seen, and no one paid attention. No one believed.”
“That isn’t true either,” Griffith said. “I know what
happened.”
Kolya chuckled. “Marion Griffith, child spy.”
“I was a teenager when you escaped. Then, I only knew what
was public. The news stories, and the movie—”
Kolya made a piteous sound of agony.
“What’s the matter? Are you all right?”
“If you tell me that appalling piece of adventure fiction
affected your life, I’ll surely throttle you. It had nothing to do with me, and
I had nothing to do with it.”
Griffith skipped over the subject of his own teenage years
and the things that had affected him when he was a dumb, romantic kid.
“When I was in a position to, I made it my business to find
out what really happened. That’s how I found your tapes. I talked to people who
were involved. It wasn’t that no one believed what you said. They did. They
knew others would, too. They were afraid of the public reaction. That’s why
they never released your interviews.”
“A political decision,” Kolya said.
“Yes. They thought if they didn’t do anything, things would
ease up with the Sweep. Unfortunately, they were wrong.”
“Yes.”
Kolya reached the foot of the slope that led up the end of
the cylinder. He began to climb.
“At the meeting,” Griffith said, “you told me that no one
outside the Sweep could do anything that would help anyone inside. Why did you
give those interviews? You were trying to affect the Sweep from outside!”
“That was years ago!” Kolya said angrily. “Things change! Different
actions are appropriate for different conditions.” He glanced over at Griffith.
“I think you want everything to be stable, and predictable. But the world isn’t
like that.”
Griffith could think of no reply.
They were halfway up the hill to the axis of Starfarer, moving along the switchbacks easily
while the gravity decreased with every step. Though the physical angle of the
slope increased, the perception was of a progressively easier climb.
“Kolya, where are we going?”
“I’m going to the liaison office. I don’t know where you’re
going.”
Griffith stopped. He watched Kolya continue up the path and
disappear into the access tunnel near the axis of the starship. He hoped Kolya
would turn around and laugh, or ask why Griffith had fallen behind. But he glided
up the hill and out of sight without another word.
Just follow him, Griffith said to himself. What can he do,
if you follow him? It’s what you’ve been doing all along, and he never did
anything to keep you from doing whatever you want.
Except, of course, Griffith was no longer following Kolya
Cherenkov.
o0o
J.D. relaxed, relieved that the audio channels back to Starfarer had closed for a while. She never felt
comfortable within the view of a camera or the range of a microphone, never
grew indifferent to their observation. The public argument had embarrassed her,
for herself and for the sake of her teammates. Relieved at the return of her
privacy, she pushed herself against her couch, tensing and stretching her
muscles.
Until Victoria mentioned it, J.D. had not realized how
hungry she was. They would all probably feel better as soon as Victoria and
Satoshi returned with sandwiches.
To her right, Stephen Thomas stared at the double image, the
pretty planet hovering around and through the solid dark shape of the
interrupted transmission.
“Maybe we’re supposed to—” he said. He stopped, and glanced
over at J.D. sheepishly. “I can’t help it,” he said. “I keep trying to make up
reasons why the transmission stopped. But I can’t think of anything that makes
sense except by invoking too much coincidence to believe in.”
“That could be what’s happened,” J.D. said. “We wouldn’t
notice coincidences, we wouldn’t even have a word for them, if things didn’t
happen that were too strange to believe.”
“True,” he said. He sounded more cheerful. Then he sighed. “But
Satoshi’s right, too.”
“I’m sure he didn’t mean to snap at you,” J.D. said. “We’ve
been through an awful lot in the last few hours. He looks exhausted. So do you.”
“You aren’t saying I have dark circles under my eyes, are
you?” Stephen Thomas said.
He smiled. J.D. chuckled. He had dark circles, all right. At
least the bruises had stopped spreading. The cut on his forehead showed livid
under a transparent bandage.
Stephen Thomas gestured toward the holographic display. “I
imagined this so often. Before you joined the team, we practiced in here. Just
like the Apollo astronauts before the first moon landing. This was supposed to
be another giant leap...”
“It still is!” J.D. said.
“I hope so. I hope it’s not just a small misstep. But I wish
I knew why the message stopped.”
As they gazed in silence at the half-completed display, the
hard link chimed with a message. It was Kolya Cherenkov.
“Hello, Kolya,” J.D. said, surprised that he had called her.
Like everyone else on board Starfarer, she
held him in considerable awe.
“Do you have a moment to speak with me?” he asked.
“Of course.”
“This alien transmission,” he said, then hesitated. “It
makes me suspicious of its creators.”
“Why?” J.D. found the behavior of the alien message confusing.
She knew she did not understand the motives behind it. But it had not occurred
to her to suspect that the motives were sinister.
“I wish I could say for sure. Perhaps I’m only being
paranoid, perhaps these are the fears of an old man who has seen too much evil
in his lifetime...”
“The message is strange,”
J.D. said. “But... it’s alien, after all. Not evil.”
“The message feels to me like a trap. Or — bait for a trap.”
“If the message were bait, why would it stop?”
“I don’t know,” he admitted. “It’s just...”
J.D. waited. The silence felt very long, much longer than
the transmission delay.
“Just what, Kolya?” she asked gently.
“I...” He stopped again, then said, with intensity, “This is
a mission of exploration. As I keep reminding myself. I agree with the idea
that starfaring civilizations will have given up war. Intellectually, I agree.”
“‘Intellectually,’” J.D. said. One of the most difficult
questions for the starship’s planners had been whether Starfarer should or should not be armed.
“The truth is, it frightens me that we’re unarmed. That you’re
unarmed.” He laughed, but the tone was self-deprecating. “I’m sorry. I’ve
called you to tell you my fears. To worry you, at best. To tell you to be
careful.”
She was genuinely touched. “Thank you, Kolya,” she said. “I
will be careful.”
After Kolya Cherenkov had signed off, Stephen Thomas
whistled softly.
“He’s been through experiences none of us will ever come
close to. We ought to listen to his perceptions.”
J.D. glanced at the labyrinth and at the half-completed
message. Despite Kolya’s fears, she could find nothing ominous within the maze.
Within the second message, she could find nothing at all.
“Can you see anything there, Zev?” she asked. “Any pattern?”
“Only waves,” Zev said.
“Yes.” It was like seeing animals and faces in clouds. The
mind looked for familiar patterns. What more familiar pattern could Zev see,
than waves?
J.D. yawned. She glanced over at Zev. He was wide awake,
interested, alert. She envied him his energy and his youth.
“When will we get there?” he said. “Will we be able to swim?”
“We probably aren’t going to the planet,” J.D. said. “Not
this trip. Maybe when Starfarer arrives
with more support. For now we’re just going to the planet’s moon.”
“Oh,” Zev said, disappointed.
J.D. glanced back at the transmission. For a moment she
thought it had resumed, but like the patterns in the clouds, in the waves, the
perception was a trick of her mind. The image remained steady, unchanging.
“Zev...” J.D. said. “If you were swimming with your family,
and somebody you didn’t know came toward you making a lot of unpleasant noise,
what would the divers do? What would the orcas do?”
Zev looked at her curiously. “We would all swim away,” he
said. “Of course.”
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